Dear Yashi,
I know what a difficult past week this has been for you and us. I know so many thoughts must be running through your head, and there is equal parts confusion, grief, sadness and disappointment.
On Day 1, you apologised for having had high expectations, which made you blow up. But the reason they became unhealthy because not of the expectations themselves, but the influence they had on your emotions,
On Day 2, you apologised for taking things for granted. The truth is, it’s not only you that takes things for granted. I do. We all do. But we also take our control over ourselves for granted. That is something we should not do.
On Day 3, you apologised for your words. Sometimes I wonder what I would have said had it been me that got drunk. Perhaps the reason I do not wish to get drunk is so that I don’t find out. Words hurt, but they are not imprinted.
On Day 4, you apologised for your mental health being a work in progress. While things got the better of you this time, we are all works in progress. There is still much for all of us to learn and grow. Keep doing better.
On Day 5, you apologised on our monthversary for the shock and confusion you felt when you kept drinking on. We all as people have a weakness, but it is up to us not to let the devil inside take us over. I believe it never will again.
On Day 6, you apologised about your anxiety and self-sabotage tendency. As your partner perhaps there was something I could have done to keep you away from the rabbit hole. I have my regrets about that night too.
Today, I don’t want you to apologise. I want you to breathe anew on today’s fresh chapter which marks the start of a new year for you today. Please smile and keep fighting back, no matter what happens. Never give up, ever.
Love,
R.
